So as some of you know I had a great first beta and then it fell.  I am very worried that something might be wrong with me.  My first surrogacy was very easy... I went in had 2 fresh embryos transfered and became pregnant with twins.  That is where it stopped being easy.  My next IP's whom I adore, tried with me for a year and half with no real positive results.  The first transfer came back with a negative result.  The next transfer we put seven embryos in and one took.  We saw a heartbeat at 7 wks but then at 9 wks the heart had stopped. I had a DNC and the IP's did tests on the fetus and we found out that one of the chromosomes were missing.  The next transfer I got a positive on the pee stick but the beta was less than 5.  My last transfer with resulted with a single digit beta.

Now I have new IP's and and we had 1 transfer with 1 fresh embryo and my number was high on the first beta, it was around 273 then two days later it was 242 and three days after that it was 39.  I feel so bad for my new IP's especially if it is me that now has the problems.  Has any one had anything like this happen to them?  I hope not but any advice would be great.

I am sorry to hear about everything that you have been through. I don't understand how your first would've worked so well with twins and then the next few didn't. Was the transfer done at different clinics? Don't blame yourself!

I can sympathize with you as far as your most recent loss. My husband and I just transferred one and it didn't take and we are devestated. I'm very depressed right now. It never even crossed my mind that it would be the surrogate. I just look at it as, this wasn't our time I guess. I will be praying for you! I have been doing a lot of that lately

I hate to hear everything you have been through. You are in my prayers that any future journey is a successful one!

So I found out that it was me after all.... the doctor said that he thinks I have a condition called Adenomysis. Which is a death sentence for any surrogate.  I felt like a failure not only for the couple that I was now working with but also for the couple that I spent a year and half with.  The doctor said that I could become pregnate but it would be much harder.  I would have to implant lots of embryos.

So that ends my journey as a surrogate.  I wish everyone lots of sticky success.  Thanks for all the kind thoughts and words.

I am so sorry, please don't feel like a failure. You were able to give a couple twins! You can't help what happened. You tried helping the other couples have the family they always dreamed of. You are a wonderful person for doing that. How many people are willing to do something like that, not many!

I'm so sorry that your surrogacy journey has come to an end. I know the end of your journey had to be very hard on you and your family. I do hope you're doing well. What a wonderful gift you've given your first set of ips. Thank you for updating us.. you will be in my prayers.