So I have my first appointment with the fertility doctor Friday the 27th.  I am excited and nervous all at the same time.  I hate meeting new doctors so that makes me feel weird but I can not wait to get it all started.  Contracts should be done today or monday so things are starting to move along.  This finally seems real.

How exciting! I know what you mean about being nervous! So the big meeting is tomorrow? Good luck and let us know how it goes!

Good luck tomorrow! It's natural to feel nervous. I know I will be!

Well the doctors appointment went well.  I was late because I was following Google maps instead of calling to get directions- I will not do that again.    The doc took out my IUD and we talked about the protical.  I have to do a few test but have to wait till my next cycle starts because it has to be timed just right.  But then after that we should be good to go. 

Can I ask you all a question too.   I am feeling very overwhelmed at the moment.  Everything is happening very fast.  I just got connected with this agency and the IM in January and I am already seeing docs and such.  Also I don't really feel like they are listening to me when I tell them that I can not try during my next 2 cycles because it would put the delivery date the same week that my husband leaves for his 6 month deployment or right before (like 5 days) my kids' birthdays.  Is it okay for me to tell them that I have to wait, I have to take a  step back from all of this and make sure that the uneasyness that I'm feeling is just because of the overwhelmingness of all of it, or if it's God telling me STOP.?  I am the type of person that does things just to make others happy and I know that with this I have to be sure that it is right because if not it could ruin my life and my emotional wellbeing.  I can't sacrifice my mental health and my families wellbeing for this.  I have to take care of me and my family first.  RIGHT?  I'm not wanting to back out completely (Unless that is what God ask me to do) I just need room to breathe to make sure that when the baby comes that I can emotionally give that baby to someone else. 

Thanks ladies for your help and encouragement.
Jenn

It is natural to feel overwhelmed. So the IPs aren't listening to you about when you want to do the cycle? What are they saying?? This is your body and if you need to stop and think about this, now is the time before it's too late. This process is very overwhelming and I know what you mean once your matched everything happens so suddenly. Yes, you need to take care of your mental health first and if you feel you aren't mentally ready to do this, I would stop now. I'm not trying to talk you out of this or anything, but this could be devastating to you and your IPs if you rush into this and then get severely depressed. I would ask them if they could wait a couple of weeks while you discuss things with your husband. Then you need to give them a final answer. If you aren't ready now, then you should let them go and move on. Hopefully you're feeling better soon and everything gets better for you and your IPs. Please let me know how things are going. Take care!