not sure how much more I can take everyone I talk to sounds hopefull that they can help me have a baby then i get to the  cost and well thats the end of that. Why does it have to be so expensive. I understand the women should be compensated but what about "us" the intended parents that have gone through so much for the past 13 yrs and are out of money and still want a baby so bad  that i cry myself to sleep at night. Am i just out of luck because my job that i have which is a good job for this economy wont allow me to pay $15-50000 for a baby???? I work for the state have full benefits etc but it still wont allow me to come up with that kind of money. Im sorry just had to vent, its just so frustrating it seems like this is all about who can do the highest bidding.