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Title: My surrogacy journey
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Blog Entry: I am a 1st time GS. I have been looking for my IP's for almost a year. I am working with a couple agencies as well as looking on my own. I have been "matched" with several IP's, but they always back out on me. Do you know how depressing it is to get so far, typically just before I'm supposed to fly out to there clinic to do physicals and sign contracts, and then get dumped!?! This has happened 3 different times. I'm about ready to give up on the entire thing. It is such a roller coaster ride. Ya know, the really fast, spinning ones that by the time your through your ready to throw up? Ya, that's where I am. I know I'd make a great SM and have even offered to do it for free to several couples because I don't believe you have to be super rich to be a good parent. And they still back out on me!! AAH! I'm to the point of just giving up and saying no. I have been let down and had my heart broken by these wonderful people who just want children so many times, I just don't know how much more I can take.  Don't get me wrong; I can't blame these people. One of them decided to get a divorce, and I don't want to bring a child into the world with only 1 parent to raise him/her. (My mom was a single parent and it's a lot harder on the kids than you think.) One just never talked to me. Like they just up and disappeared one day. One couple, the wife actually just woke up one morning and decided she was a lesbian if you can believe that(I'm not sure I do). And the most recent dumped me for somebody who lives closer to them. The 1st and the 3rd I can't blame. I'd do the same in there situation. But that doesn't mean I have to like it. The fact that their reasons are valid doesn't make it any easier on me.  I have wanted to be a surrogate for close to 10 years! I LOVED being pregnant and am a very flexible kinda girl. I mean I am open to selective reduction, my fee is a lot lower than most and I am willing to go lower, I would love to carry multiples, I have my own insurance, I don't smoke or drink(although after each of these rejections I must say a good, strong shot or two of rum really didn't sound bad), I have a healthy BMI of 26, I am not taking any medications, I have regular periods, my son was a complete surprise, while we were using BC, so I know I'm fertile... I fail to see why I am having such issues find IPs!! I mean, I have a lot of friends who are SMs and they get matched within a month once they put themselves out there. And half of them don't even have insurance or willing to do selective reduction!! What is the matter with me!?!? Any way, I am once again taking a chance on a couple. They seem very nice and they tell me that they have a very strong marriage. I really hope they work out. This is going to be my last time trying. If it doesn't work out with them I'm done. Well... not totally. I will just stop trying to do this on my own. I will wait for one of my agencies to call me and hope that they will make sure the IP's won't back out on me.  Wish me luck and I'll update as soon as something changes.